I need a redbull

Actually I hate redbull but I am so low on energy right now it's ridiculous. I got home today and flopped down on my loveseat and passed out with all the lights blazing. Nevermind that fitting my body on a loveseat required folding myself in half!

I think it's stress.

I'm on the hunt for jobs again (totally lame, I hate job searching). It's really too bad because in a way, I love my job. I work in cosmetics which allows me to really sell a product not just check someone out. I've given makeovers, helped people clear up their skin and helped a cancer patient find the wig that suits her style. It's a great feeling, it sounds cheesy but I really am happy doing stuff that I feel helps people.

Most of the time I work alone which is fine by me, I like the quiet and can always keep busy with projects or reading a book. And I don't have the big corporate pressure to meet sales goals or open credit cards. Sadly the stores hours are very limited and between you and me... (and um, the internet) the money isn't being managed the best and whether or not the store will stay open much longer remains to be seen. Who needs all that noise? Hence, the search.

I walked the mall today and applied a few more places, blah blah blah. I'm getting bored with the scene. I loathe job interviews and hate the first days starting a new job when you're not in a routine yet & it's all that nonsense of "here's where you clock in..." etc. BLECH.

I need an attitude adjustment.

Speaking of negative outlook. I am very non-psyched that school starts on Tuesday. My last semester of college, I should be sentimental but I'm just cranky about buying books and having homework again. Summer just disappeared all of a sudden. I had more books in my summer reading pile and more things I wanted to do. Life goes way too fast. I'm afraid I'm just gonna wake up one day at 50 and be like, "wasn't I just 22?"

The other night my mom and I had a slumber party-- we're cool like that. I made pasta and a salad and we finished with cheesecake. Then we watched V for Vendetta (only one of the best movies ever) and I did a makeover for her. We are pretty much the coolest.

Tomorrow work has the opportunity to either be really fun or terrifying. I'm supposed to do two wedding make-overs and a facial. Granted I have learned a lot about make-up but it's a ton of pressure to do someone's makeup for a wedding!! Especially since I'm doing the make-up and sending them off to get married. Lord, please inspire me to do something pretty.

Ugh. I just ate way too many oreos! Also, I'm in a funk where I can't quite get my fingers to line up with the right keys, hence having to delete every other second... does that happen to anyone else at times? At any rate, this post is exhausting me. I need to go make healthy food and sleep some more.

Ciao.