Just keep swimming: Parade candy and deep thoughts

This past weekend I was in Eureka for Schmeckfest (think polka, strudels and quilt shows) and had a grand old time. Went to a parade and now I have this ziploc full of disgusting parade candy... and I'm eating it.... which begs the question why?

I mean, if you're gonna eat candy. It should be the good stuff. I'm just saying...

This bit of honey is gross. I think because it's rock hard... maybe if it wasn't rock hard...was this one they forgot to throw at last year's parade?

*sigh*

I'm at work and I'm dreadfully bored.

Today my mom and I ate lunch at Famous Dave's BBQ. I was distressed because the hostess who seated us seemed happier and more well adjusted at her job than I am at mine. What gives?

I'm just wretched and ungrateful. I don't wanna work my way up the ladder. I just want to be at the top. Can't I just step into the success of someone like Roger Ebert or Larry King? I'd like to interview people or review movies.

Speaking of movies...I've been on a Netflix kick lately. Going through films like crazy. I recommend:

The Contender perfect when you're in the mood for a political/ethical thriller. Joan Allen gives an Oscar-worthy performance. It also has a PPS (powerful Presidential speech) in it. Think American President or Independence Day (I'm a sucker for movies with those corny moments).

Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day is so happy and silly and fun. Think "It's a Wonderful Life" but starring two funny women (and uh--- nothing to do with holidays or dying). It just gives you warm fuzzy feelings.

I also recently re-watched Mystery, Alaska. We own that one but if you haven't seen it... do. I really don't think you'll be disappointed.

On a more serious note may I just say that the state of our economy terrifies me like nothing else? I hope our elected officials do not cave to this bailout. What Bush wants put through has no conditions and no oversight. It is, as Obama called it, a "blank check." There are so many people losing jobs and homes and living in tents in this country right now. When I was a young girl, this is not the America I thought I would inherit. I never imagined things could get like this. We have to do something but the proposed solution right now is not sitting right with me.

Seeing all this just reinforces to me that I have to get on top of my own credit card debt. It's all fallout from 2007 where I worked for poverty wages and put everything on my credit card. Now I'm in all this debt and I may need to consider finding another job to supplement my income. I used to be a freelance writer but with the economy kicking everyone's ass the people who used to hire me can no longer afford to do so.

Balls.

I have worked in retail and I have waitressed and both things gave me severe anxiety.

But things will work out. I have health and family and Tyler so things are already working out pretty well. Now if I could just get some decent candy.........

For your enjoyment (har har) - photos of the parade *(courtesy of cousin Lori)*