Just keep swimming :o)

I have had many requests to see Goliath (he's such a celebrity). You can see them by clicking here. I didn't want people to open this page and see the pictures without warning, so consider yourself warned. If you want to see it, you can check old archives. I made a post with pics.

So life is still ups and downs. I can't believe I spent so long obsessing about surgery when I should have been worried about THIS part-- the recovery. It's so ANNOYING. It feels like it's been 4 weeks, not 4 days since the surgery. Every day drags on and is full of so much pain and frustration.

Today I made the mistake of finding something funny and I got the giggles.. HUGE MISTAKE. My stomach kills now. It's best if I find everything boring. If I laugh or cry my muscles ache for hours.

I am not good when I lose my routine. And right now, I have no routine. I live minute to minute and sometimes it can take a very long time just to get up.

I am trying to make myself think positively. It could be so much worse and there is fun stuff coming up. I try and remind myself of milestones that I have to look forward to.

--The staples come out on Wednesday
--I have received many nice phone calls/flowers/cards
--My parents are taking awesome care of me
--I don't have cancer and I didn't lose a limb in Iraq
--In a few weeks I'll feel better and a friend is getting married-- fun times.
--Soon, I'll feel well enough to put on jeans & I bet a 7 pound loss can't hurt!
--Luckily I'm not in school and my job is being cool so I don't have to feel pressure to hurry up and heal. I can take the time until I feel back to normal
--The sun is shining

See... that feels good but then I'll do something like cough and I get all pissy again.

I am not a very patient person and in my warped brain I should already be FINE. Surgery be damned! Nevermind that I have a huge scar and a large object was removed from my body, I have plans darnit.

Okay so today's plan is to...
Eat
Be positive
Watch a fun movie
Take a walk
Call some friends
Brush my hair--- maybe, we'll see :) Being ugly is a perk of surgery no one can fault you for.

God grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.