Up late with my thoughts

I'm sitting here enjoying the feeling of a Friday night. That blissful feeling knowing that school does not start again until Monday and I don't work tomorrow until 2 pm. Life is good. I'm tooling around the net, checking out the blogs of friends, looking at my favorite websites and *sigh* cyber-shopping. Super dangerous that is. I just blew $50 on clothes I KNOW I don't need. It's just so devious. You log in to your favorite site and look at your wish list-- oh my, so much is now on clearance.

I am listening to Raffi sing "baby beluga"-- I guess I'm feeling nostalgic for being, like, 5 years old. It wasn't a bad age if I recall. I was too young to be jealous of the older kids, I didn't have romantic feelings for boys, and I liked my skip-it, jump rope and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with a side of Mr. Rogers. I knew deep down that someone would always take care of me. Now life is so radically different. Dad called me a week ago to tell me, "Um, yeah, my insurance policy kicks you off when you turn 22 in April, so you might want to shop around for some health insurance."

I really miss being little sometimes.

School is going well. In the Sci-fi class we've read H.G. Wells, Arthur Clarke and we just watched "The Day the Earth Stood Still" which I really enjoyed. In my comedy class we read "Arsenic and Old Lace" and we're delving into these crazy Japanese "No" plays in my Drama class. Everything is new, fun, different. I manage to stay somewhat on top of homework and still find time to enjoy the small things.

I fell on the ice again. It hurt way more this time. When my knees first hit I was laughing because I had tried SO HARD to prevent the fall-- it was lots of spectacular twisting in mid-air, but to no avail. A lot of friends were around so I had a good laugh with them but then I had to do the 'turn away and swear silently/try not to cry' bit... the knees are black and blue today and look really freaky. I am so coordinated.

Sometimes I really think I need a pet. A puppy, but I've never had one so I don't know how to train it plus I'm never here. Maybe a cat-- nope, still allergic. I wish I could get a pet squirrel. But a genetically engineered one so it would curl in my lap like a kitten and let me pet it. It would also sit on my shoulder like a parrot and make little noises at people I didn't like and crawl up their leg and scare them. Yeah... a pet squirrel would rule.

For three days I was super stoked because I thought I was going to Italy. I found a course through UND that would sign me up this semester for photography and then in June I would fly to Italy for 2 weeks to take photographs and attend seminars, travel etc. I thought I could get a study abroad loan and the professor said she'd take me, but I realized I would miss weddings of two close friends as well as a family reunion so I set it aside... I guess Italy's not going anywhere but it's still kinda a downer.

N.D. has gotten majorly dumped on snow-wise lately. It looks like Christmas outside, big fluffy snow, people making snow men. Again.... if I were little, this would rock. However I am old and this is mostly an inconvenience as the only footwear acceptable for getting around campus is snow boots and it takes 20 minutes to brush off my car.

I decided I finally figured out my response to Brokeback Mountain. I think it's a great love story, good acting, very touching but I couldn't enjoy it because the idea of so much heartbreak-- on MANY different levels, not just between the romantic leads but also their wives-- was just too depressing. I saw "hoodwinked" tonight to clear the mind. It's a short, animated movie that has no heartache but rather talking animals and fun dance numbers. I enjoyed that thoroughly. It’s not Oscar fare but a fun escape… like I said, I feel nostalgic for being 5.

A few weeks ago I gave blood. I was so proud of myself because they put out a public call for A-positive and hey-- that's me. I felt so helpful! I was there late in the day and as the lady was prepping me she said, “You know how as it gets late in the day you feel so tired you almost feel drunk?” Yes, I do know that feeling. Please put the needle down….

Lately I feel like I'm constantly hungry. No matter what I eat. I really hope this will be over soon cause I can't keep going to the grocery store/out to eat. Plus I just bought jeans online and if they get here in 7-10 days and I've outgrown them, I'm gonna be pissed off.

It's nearly 3 am. I have been random enough. Ciao for now.